yo guys i have a very big news for you, I’m moving out from lazy 9 (this will be quite long)
yeah, i have been thinking for months whether i move out or stay in the team, though recently i chose to move out, but the next problem was how to message and so it took another month. yeah, I’m a type of person that can’t start anything once i’m 100% sure (yeah i was still hesitating)
well, yeah, i got quite a few or a lot(?) of them, one of the big reason was me being quite bad in teams i think. well, if you guys remember me saying something like “Kinda pissed at someone” it was actually someone in goup with a big authority(in the team). yeah, main reason why it really took me long to do this, I don’t really want to do any offense to this person ( well, I kinda owe this person a lot) but in the end i just decided to be honest and be myself.
why i got pissed?
just leme tell this, I’m really bad at telling my real thoughts to other people(trust-issues). well, basically, this person invited a new member without consulting us or me, though at first he told us he found a K translator, i thought that he would just help out that person and not invite in the group(well, i might be also at fault here not asking), also leme tell you guys that i don’t like K manhua, novels and stuff, i won’t tell you guys why i don’t like it, i just don’t like it. well, that is one of the reason thats ticked me off but still the main thing was that person didn’t consult me, if had just consulted me , i would have 100% for sure would have allowed it without any resentment whether it be CH or K or maybe an original. though, i thought that i should just let this pass by but when i was about to return the person did it again and i was cornered. I’m also at fault for this, i was so taken back by the first one that i didn’t tell that person that i don’t like that sort of action which had cause the 2nd one, I’m just that type of person, i enjoy doing stuff as a team, i enjoy chatting with teammates, thinking stuffs with them and etc, but this kind of thing really makes me feel betrayed. well, yeah, I may look like some drama lord like now but actually, I’m timid and a very negative person that easily gets depressed and it takes quite some time for me to stand-up again, I actually rant a lot, at how fucked up my life is or how fucked up i am and etc. well this is getting long so to summarize it i was being a child. also that “terrible” quite hurts, i love yuri a lot.
though really my choice was either to drive the person out but i didn’t really want that so i decide to drive myself out.
now as for why i got so lazy translating
every time i look at the lazy9 wordpress I lose my motivation. though, i already have low motivation which is because of rl stuff. I am also having a slump in drawing ,haven’t drawn anything in months. and honestly i really got addicted in reading wn raws.
actually i was not suppose to say this now, i was suppose to surprise you guys with a kansu chapter but right now i’m actually really depressed, someone NTR’d a series that i was secretly translating and it surprisingly felt really bad, i was suppose to translate the series as a main project as i take a break from kansu for a while, though i don’t any guts to say it to the translator that i was translating it OTL *looks at the skies with empty eyes*
anyway, being depressed makes me tired so that will be enough for now, i have a lot more reasons and stuff but yeah i’m tired. i’ll be making a new wordpress soon(?) though i still have to find another wn to translate orz. anyway see ya