9: note this is a speed translation, this is not done accurately and may have lots of grammar errors, and this was done in a chat.
Me and My Beloved Cat (Girlfriend)
The Emotion in My Heart
Day 5 Part 1
Morning came absent-mindedly, as if I were in a dream.
Since I kept sleeping, my fever has lightened too. ―― but these emotions I have towards Mina just get heavier.
「Kasumi, are you alright?」
I said it clearly, but I’m not all that fine. After all, Mina is right beside me.
Still, I want to be close to Mina. It’s like they’re contradicting each other, but these thoughts seem to be coexisting smoothly without conflict.
My body. It desires Mina. My eyes unconsciously chase her, but if she looks back, they ended up looking down.
Mina’s kind eyes — they just might destroy this rupturing heart of mine at any moment.
We have the same room, so we’ll do a lot of things together. However, because it’s Mina, there’s a certain someone who evades her. Me.
Even though we had always held hands going to school together before, I can’t do it anymore.
Whenever we hold hands, my heart throbs so much that my body gets weird.
After all, I can’t do anything about the 『love』 that I ended up discovering anymore.
Whether I’m awake or asleep, I can only think about Mina.
“Mina and I have to kiss.”
Compared to when I thought that at first, the situation right now might be more severe.
「Kasumi, are you spacing out?」
It’s impossible for me to stay calm hearing Mina’s heart gripping voice when I can only think about her.
「Mou, what’s the matter?」
Having my head petted…Doing that, with Mina being extremely close to me, I’ll just get nervous on my own.
「I-it’s nothing, so don’t worry」
It is something… But that thing, Mina shouldn’t be able to notice it.
「Perhaps, is your condition still bad? Your face is red you know?」
My face is red because the person that I 『love』 is close to me. This fact makes me feel so heavy that it just breaks my body.
「N, it’s alright. That’s why…」
My body heats up on its own. The worried face that is coming closer, it’s so close that I could end up kissing her.
「Your face is red, did your fever come back again?」
Mina’s hand touched my forehead. With just that, I get really weird.
「Sorry, even though you’re not really recovered, I forced you to come with me」
「It’s fine….. After all, it’s my fault for not being able to recover…..」
My feelings for Mina just keep growing.
If I don’t do something about this, I think I might break.
Maybe I already broke. The feeling that i must not feel, it’s expanding within me.
「Should I take you to the infirmary?」
“Okay” as Mina said that, she lent me her shoulder.
Even though she’s about the same size as me, her back seems bigger.
While feeling the heat through the clothes, we went towards the infirmary.
I can’t help my heart from beating loudly. I feel pained but I also feel happy.
“Please let us stay like this forever, please let us never reach the infirmary.” i ended up thinking that.
Despite that, my wish was in vain.
Compared to the usual, it felt that the trip took a lot longer, yet it also felt that it took an instant.
Being entrusted to the infirmary’s doctor, Mina went to class.
Even if she measures my temperature, it should not be very high.
「You should sleep for a little」 i was told that, and so I gratefully took a nap.
Bored, I looked at my watch to find that it’s already lunch. Spacing out, I started to think.
Ever since the first day Mina was at school, i thought about only her.
Another thought arises; it’s been a long time since I haven’t able to sleep with Mina.
It’s making my heart beat. Rather than sleeping, it just wakes me up.
……I love you.
As words go, it’s just 3 words, but with just that, it makes my body weird.
Having this emotion while living with Mina….just thinking about it makes my body just boil over.
Still, I don’t know what I should do after. It’s impossible for me to know.
After all, I love her so much that I’m breaking.
==========Chapter 19 End============